I've tried to avoid politics-schmolitics on this blog for some time and I have no intention of letting this goddamn election of all things change that past this, because it seems to me to be an important revelation of self more than of more politics-schmolitics.
Donald Trump. I didn't like him in the '80s when he was... whatever the fuck he was... a famous real estate guy, which was just weird. I never watched his stupid show, even when people I admire, like Penn Jillette, would come on to the celebrity edition. It was just never going to be a thing I found entertaining on any level.
So, the fact that he hasn't appealed to me as a presidential candidate, regardless of party brand, is no surprise at all. Certainly, there is a substantial constituency of Republicans that aren't enamored of whatever horseshit he's shoveling either, as we've seen. I don't believe there's any reason to think he believes the things he's saying. I'm not even convinced his followers necessarily believe it either. It's just seemed they were caught up in frothy flow of the thing.
I've tried over the years to piece together my inability to find some modicum of sympathy or comprehension of the Republican Party. I have indeed, as I've gotten older, become somewhat more conservative in many of the traditional senses. I am very sympathetic to the kinds of individual rights notions that they regularly express. And yet, my antipathy toward the party, its spokespeople and all it represents has only grown, perhaps even exponentially, as the years pass.
I have tried over the years to consider individual candidates and positions and have found small things that I could comprehend at least, but the entirety of the package made it utterly hateful to me, to the extent that I've questioned the sincerity of my own internal explorations.
So, today, it was rather a pleasant surprise to find this article, The rise of American authoritarianism by Amanda Taub. I'm sure someone has an ad hominem reason to dismiss this site or author, but it hardly matters. To me, this explains something I've been trying to understand about myself and the world around me for years.
I am, to my core, anti-authoritarian. Not just because of the pejorative implication of the word itself, which they address here, but in every sense. I would answer all of the questions provided with the non-authoritarian answer. In fact, given a scale, I would give a five "strongly" rating to all of them if asked to rank them as such. I believe that I would rate a very long series of similar questions in the same manner, with only very rare fours - I'd be surprised to find myself going as low as three on even a single answer.
Seeing that, it's obvious why the Republican Party of my lifetime started as, and has only strengthened its position as, the polar opposite of my strongest and most deeply held beliefs in a way that other forms of conservatism are not necessarily.
This only further confirms my despair over our pathetically limited two-party choices, but it also only further confirms that I will not likely be anything but a committed and passionate enemy of the Republican Party as it exists.
That really says all I have to say about politics for the year - or much longer - unless a viable third or fourth party option comes along, and they should. Much of anything else I might say otherwise will simply be a restatement of this and all of our restatements are really quite dull at this point, aren't they?